She kinda makes me feel beautiful.
And like I’m kinda worth something.

No big deal or anything.

I kind of like my body in this.

Six things you will find if you open my bag:

1. Make-up.
2. Trash.
3. My shears.
4. More make-up.
5. Even more make-up.
6. Eye liner with no liner left.

Six things in my bedroom: 

1. 7 year old rose petals.
2. Futon frame with no futon.
3. Marilyn Monroe shrine.
4. Rainbow PRIDE flag.
5. Realtor sign that says “Beautiful on the inside”.
6. Computer that doesn’t work.

Six things I’ve always wanted to do in my life: 

1. Make love to Marvin Gaye’s music.
2. Loose a grand total of 100 pounds.
3. Do hair in a hair show.
4. Move to California.
5. Have a little girl and name her Molly Mae.
6. Be on the same level as Scott Cole.

Six things that make me very happy: 

1. Hair.
2. Tattoos.
3. My friends.
4. My girlfriend.
5. My dog, Goldie.
6. Music.

Six things I’m currently into: 

1. Life.
2. Hair.
3. World of Jenks.
4. Crafts.
5. Atlanta.
6. Love.

two of my closest friends took my shopping. I didn’t fit into anything and I wanted to cry. I wanted to just go home, get into a ball and cry for hours. I am so tired of this shit. I have lost two pounds of the fucking 20 pounds that I have gained. Yes, 20. I couldn’t believe it myself. 10 of that was from the two weeks that I have been trying to quit smoking. Fuck it. Fuck everything. I am going to make myself happy. I am going to do everything that I want to do. I feel like that the reason why I cannot get back on track is because I hardley do the things I want to do. I do the things my friends want to do. I am going to say what needs to be said and not worry about avoiding confrontation at all cost to keep the other person happy. I feel like if I focus on what makes me happy on the inside, it will be easier to get back on track and make myself happy on the outside as well.

is what I feel like today.

Should I get contacts?

I LOVE HER. I think she is what every woman should be. What I mean by this is that every woman should love their body as much as she does her. Down to her unshaved arm pits, she flaunts everything she is. Not just body wise, but with her music and who she is as well.

Quitting smoking and eating right do not go hand in hand.

Day 1 without a single cigarette. I can do this.

I am now at a 44DD!!!!!! I believe, atleast. I know I have gone from a 48 to a 44, WHICH IS AWESOME! I think that I am now a DD. Unless there is some size between DD and DDD that I am now aware of. Anyways, MY TITS ARE SMALLER. And that makes me happy.

What is making your Saturday joyous?

to hate my boobs more and more every day. I think that the longer that I’m with my girlfriend, the more self conscience I am about them. It has nothing to do with her, she loves my body. I just think that the longer we are together, the more she wants to have sex with me. Which is great! Absolutely normal! But I am kind of shying away from intimacy. I think it is because I am worried about my boobs.  I don’t know..